I miss travelling. Holiday =/= travelling. :(

It's like the exam period right now and I'm so stressed. There is this humongous pimple which is like the mother of all pimples on my chin. FML. :(

Going Down Under with Jiayu after exams, I'm kinda stoked yet i'm pretty scared. On hindsight it really was on impulse that we started booking everything and there is no going back right now. OMG right?

And random photos of Penang Trip with cousins!


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Despite being labeled as social creatures, deep down, humans are individual, lonely people. Our daily experiences that shape us, individual thoughts, dreams and emotions cannot be felt by others and can only be solely understood in the context of ourselves. Hence, we tend to feel lonely even when we are surrounded by people, friends or family, cause our minds are still so isolated from each other while the physical being is still there. We feel disconnected from others because other people cannot comprehend what we are feeling. People might be in the same situation, yet we still feel alone. There might be a sense of momentary solidarity, but we are all still different.

So interesting how sociology manages to study people as beings all together, as societies and structures. We are all so individual, so alone, yet shaped by social actions of others, social norms and cultures. Although we have different mindsets, we still act collectively to create change.

I feel lonely now cause people don't really get what I want, don't understand how some things mean so much to me. I can try to explain but I don't want to get discouraged. It's complicated how you can be so torn between different things. Between what I really want to do and people's expectations of me. See which one will eventually win. Why can't things work hand in hand. Well, life can't always be perfect. Yet, if I try too hard to fight for the what I really want, I am afraid that it might not be worthwhile in the end. You don't know until you've tried right? Live and learn?

Hello my new Hoot theme! Same layout, different picture. It is really weird how I tend to make wallpapers and new themes when I am swamped with assignments.

I really think that I encounter more embarrassing situations than the normal individual. Yesterday for instance, I met a furry green spider on the bus. Almost hi-5-ed a guest cause he put his hand up and got my shoe stuck right in front of the smoking grd crew people. Like, how can my shoe get wedged between 2 pieces of concrete and refuse to come out. Like wtf, I had to squat down to grab my shoe and attempt to pull it out. Luckily some nice guy came to help out. Urggh, think I was too embarrassed to say Thanks and I ran off in shame. All in one day's work.

Anyway, I'm left with 2 more essays to finish. :) Yayness! I feel really accomplished every time I finish a wordy essay.

Will be v sad when the Goguma couple ends its run. I bet they are really in love that's why they had to put a stop to this.

Am trying to embrace the frugal life. Have not been buying clothes for 2-3 weeks now or other rubbish. Good job. :)

I like having those days where everything is sunny and wonderful and nothing will just put you down. I wish I had more of those days. I think it comes when you have something good to look forward to or you are just hanging out with the right people. Oh, and I think it comes with having enough sleep too. Usually if I lack sleep, have to work, long school days I get really pissed, and feel like stabbing lots of people with a pen and refuse to speak much.

I like things that blow my mind away. Like that tumblr picture inviting people to go to More Door. And I just watched a movie for my response paper, Brazil.

I thought it was a film about Brazilian society, Boy, was I wrong. It was kind of like reading those classics. You know those literature which reflects society and has like a million hidden meanings. Well, I've read George Orwell's Animal Farm and William Golding's Lord of the Flies. Brazil was something like that. Depressing but mind blowing. It leaves a strong impact on you but it was so dark and depressing that I didn't like it very much. But writing it from a analytical point of view made me see the hidden messages clearer. Apparently a lot of people rate it as their favourite movie of all time, but I guess I will stick with movies like Inception and Transformers. Well, Inception was the last min blowing movie I watched.

Interesting, interesting.

I hate that feeling, that feeling you get when you read through your own essay and you are like, "OH.MY.GOD. WHAT IS THIS SHIT I AM WRITING? WHY DON'T I GET IT?!?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BRAIN? HOW CAN MY WHOLE ESSAY FEEL SO IRRELEVANT!!". :( It's like you spent forever writing the essay, and after you are done, you read through it to check and you get that hateful feeling. Urggggh. :(

Work is getting a little hateful. I love earning more money but working at the first 2 counters and doing closing really makes me go FFFFUUUUU sometimes. Screw the inefficient system and bureaucratic disorders.

Thank god I have Big Bang Theory and Glee and soon to end We Got Married (Yongseo couple) to keep me going even if its distracting. :)